So…ready for #2?

Not sure if I am ready for this, I feel like my belly button just went back in from the last time! lol

Not sure if I am ready for this again, I feel like my belly button just went back in from the last time! lol

Ready for number 2? We all know what that means. People start asking that as soon as you pop the first one out and honestly after my baby girl I didn’t think I would ever be ready again. We talked about it for a whole year, how we were totally fine with having an only child. We weighed all the pros and cons and were set and happy with our decision. Originally we both wanted more but that was before the pregnancy and the breast feeding, and the all nighters which lead to terribly cranky mornings. But here we are, looking at new cars and pricing out the extra diapers.

I seriously never thought this day would come. I had the suspicion that all mothers at some point must forget everything they went through otherwise why would anybody ever have more than one kid but now I find that is not the case, at least not the case at this moment for me. I remember all of it, the morning sickness, the weight gain, heart burn, stretch marks, and no alcohol but I’m wanting to do it again none the less. I have never loved somebody so much.

My baby girl is a hand full and, at times, in the nicest possible way, an inconvenience but she is the most amazing thing I have ever been a part of. I am her mother and I am responsible for helping make her life everything she wants it to be but really she has been doing that for me. She forced me to put everything into perspective and to figure out what I really want and what is really important. Every day I love her more, I take 100 pictures a day, and everything she does is amazing. I get to see things anew through her and experience life again through her. I want to be better for her because she is everything to me. So why wouldn’t I want to have number 2 and let her have a partner in crime, let us take 200 pictures a day, and watch them grow up to be best friends?

What’s hard is I have found I can make a very persuasive argument either way. I really don’t know how I will feel when it actually happens, and I don’t think I will have any idea until it does. My daughter wasn’t planned, I definitely didn’t think I was ready for a baby or a serious relationship but here we are, we are a family and wouldn’t have it any other way. It turned out to be absolutely perfect timing, or maybe having a baby just forces you to find the path in life that makes it perfect timing. So I guess, my answer to “are you ready for number two?” is no, I’m not, but I can’t imagine a better time.